I’m not a morning person

No. Though how hard I tried, I can never be one! (I blame it on my pig year of Chinese calendar though). Yet, I love the Mother Nature’s beauty in the morning; Morning Glory!



It’s not that I hate morning necessarily as much as I find myself in need of some gentle way to gracefully fit myself into the day. I do have my fair share of admiring the beauty of mornings especially on days where I can barely sleep any longer (which rarely happens unless I’m overdosed of sleep). The dewdrops trickling down my poinsettia plant, birds chirping happily and the first ray of the day peeping through the clouds, the fresh air and scent of mornings are some of the favorite things that I admire.



As a teenager I remember mornings where I get up with a sulky face (even till today) when my mom comes to wake me up. I would get off to a moody start and she always wondered what my problem was in the mornings. I will tell you it was the fact that mom loves to yell at the top of her lungs that it was time to get up each morning, and then come into the room, flick on the lights and ask me if I heard her. Of course that kind of wake-up call is enough to swing my mood off. If I remind her not to startle me awake, she would get annoyed. I end up getting ‘free lecture’ before I could scramble myself outta bed! Maybe she is a morning person and fits herself quickly into the day with her exuberance which I admired over the years. (esp waking up earlier than me to make my breakfast and lunch in one go). Probably, that is why she expects to see her girls to be up on feet as early as her to start the day with good vibe! Will I be able to put myself in her shoes and take up these chores to my kids in future? Maybe, it’s time for me to start thinking about from now. One thing is definite that I love her being so firm yet subtle till she had to change her way to deal with a tough girl like me. He,he,he

On the other hand, my dad is such a sweetheart simply because he knows how to handle me in the mornings. I must say he has acquired the art of waking me up in the morning since he knows I’m a deep sleeper. He wakes me with a whisper to my ear and tickles my feet for a few seconds. But even better, he would sit by my side and comforts me saying you can have a better sleep once you’re back from work. He really does know how to pamper his princess to the extreme. Sadly enough my morning disposition has gloomy slant. I wake up vulnerably and have to adjust in order to see the good side of life. I’d call myself more of an optimist than a pessimist but I tend to take time to adjust myself slowly to kick start my day in a cheerful way. Waking up involves small things, like focusing my eye to the first light of the day after a whole night in darkness, having a quick moment to slip out of the bits and pieces of my dream and stretching myself from sleeping position. And the most encouraging moment in the morning is the thought of sipping my coffee; well coffee is like a blessing, a special elixir that changes everything! I don’t think these are big things to ask for and yet without that time each day to adjust, I am a more difficult person than usual to deal with.



My cup of coffee

Perception

Just the perfect day to snuggle comfortably under my tempting, soft bed which I could not do so. It’s a working day for god’s sake! I loathe at the mere thought of rain in the morning esp on weekdays! Darned it!! But it’s a clear indication of a wet Tuesday awaiting me to explore what the day has ahead of me. One thing in common is the exact gloomy mood gyrating at the back of my mind which harmonizes with the cold day. Honestly, I have no idea why I'm shrouded with clouds of sullen feeling for the past couple of days. Perhaps, last week has been a week where I have been hearing a series of unfortunate events happening to someone that I know dearly or to someone associated to them. It doesn’t matter who they are but the real thing I learnt was, I felt for them even though I barely know them. I began to look at things at different perspective. A surge of exploratory thoughts engulfed me. I was left all by myself with queries to which no one will have answers to it. I started envisaging what life is all about?




Sometimes, we tend to take things for granted. While we have a beautiful life with so many essence to appreciate, we are more than inclined to whine. I could whine about being tired or battling my way through the traffic congestion, or having to get up early, or lack of sleep, or the fact that my muscle cramp. Day in and day out, there are countless number of things that all of us can list them up and complaint endlessly. How often do we count our blessings? Blessings come in different forms and by changing the way you look at it and learn to appreciate every single thing will make our live worthwhile during our uncertain journey in this world. I have also come to realize that the things I may want to whine about are just a part of the journey so I may as well get used to it.
As I sat on my couch this evening with a cup of hot coffee to keep me warm and revitalized after work, a tint of grateful feeling tap my senses and made me cherish my life and my loved ones so much. For the past couple of weeks, sudden deaths, calamities and bizarre news reaches my ear and makes me to sit back and reflect on life on a deeper thought. Life can be on fast lane. But at times you need to hit on the speed brake to see what’s left and right. Work deadlines, obligatory calls, etc should not sum up your way of life. The most important things in life should not be neglected which could be a point of regret one day?

Black Saturday Episode (09.07.2011)

A day that many of us would never forget. An uproar which united all Malaysian irrespective of the age, gender, cultural differences and above all, across the globe.
Most Malaysian’s would recall our ‘Black Saturday’ that happened 3 weeks ago which gave us an opportunity to see what real democracy is all about. The BERSIH was proclaimed as anti-government rally which is unhealthy and damaging the image of Malaysia. How far is this true? For the past couple of weeks prior to BERSIH movement, I was somewhat disconnected from the political news in the media. I remember vaguely how little did I know and concerned about the NGO’s effort to seek for justice in the country and to uphold the rights of each one of us as a citizen. Simply because, I hate to watch the local TV channel which highlights ‘crappy news’ and demonstrate their prejudice by telecasting news that is misleading. Grimy politics, local celebrity divorces, and corporate social responsibility event by local assemblyman are some of the news line-ups in local channel. At the end of the news, I don’t feel that I’m informed with genuine and true happenings in the country. Therefore, I prefer to read news online from other sources which are not bias in any way and informed the readers with right news.
That was why I didn’t have the slightest idea what was BERSIH all about. I thought it was another political propaganda in preparation for our next GE in Malaysia. But just a week before the real event, when all talks were about Bersih, I decided to check it out what was all about. The Bersih 2.0 is actually a non-government organization (NGO) which was illegal, then somewhat legal and illegal again. It is not an organization which would ruin our country’s peace. Instead, every person who supports Bersih is actually a brave Malaysian demanding for the rights of the citizen that elections will be Bersih/Clean. That was when I realize the 8 request made by them is nothing to do with the political agenda. It is purely organized by the NGOs for the rakyat! If you take a look at the 8 demands, one will question, “What’s wrong with it”? The 8 demands are as below:
1. Clean the electoral roll
2. Reform postal ballot
3. Use of indelible ink
4. Minimum 21 days campaign period
5. Free and fair access to media
6. Strengthen public institutions
7. Stop corruption
8. Stop dirty politics
This is not gutter politics. This is definitely not in support of another political party. It is not a form of propaganda to instigate the ‘rakyat’ to go against the government. It is all about clean and fair elections for all. It is to restore the rights of each and every citizen of Malaysia. I don’t see why the government can’t fulfill the demands. The essence of the rally was for a good cause and democracy. The movement wanted to have a peaceful procession to the King to hand over the demands in a rightful manner but the whole event has been transformed into a chaotic one. When I looked at each and every one of Malaysians that actually took their time off and walk down the streets despite many warnings and short of access into the city, I was touched and very sanguine at the same time. People from all walks of life; students, professionals, disabled citizens, old and young, and above all our people voice; assemblyman and not to forget our pride of country; Datuk Ambiga, made their way through to the streets hoping to bring a encouraging change in our lives. She is a woman of courage whom each one of us as a woman should be proud of her and admire her capability to do something for the lawful rights of citizens of Malaysia.
I was in mixed emotions when I saw inconceivable series of events unfolded on Saturday. It did convey a distinct message to the ruling party that ‘each and every citizen of Malaysia’ looks forward for a clean and fair election. I felt I missed out the fight for justice spirit shown by my fellow Malaysians through Bersih 2.0 Rally. Finally I’m proud of being a Malaysian simply because for once we are standing united for a good cause and for the rights of a citizen in what I would describe a beautiful multi-racial country. For this, I’m dying to iterate the maxim “Malaysia Boleh” for once!
I hadn’t been actually following closely on what happened but I am really touched by how patriotic Malaysians are albeit having known many racism cases, the Bersih rally clearly exhibits how Malaysians can become ONE. And in my opinion, that is how ONE MALAYSIA truly is. I saw thousands of pictures and videos which was posted on the Malaysian Bersih 2.0 facebook page and was deeply touched. And all I can do is hope for a better change. I felt most touched by those whom went there to fight for all of us by getting injured for some, simple truth.

There is a lot to learn from the Japanese

The double catastrophe that battered Japan 4 months ago, has turned the attention of whole world to the devastated nation. I guess most of us can never predict nor control what will happen to us down the road. But we know for sure although life can be quite a bliss at times we can also go through seasons of difficulties, disappointments, unfulfilled dreams betrayal, disasters and so on. So how does one cope with such adversities in life? Most of us will be stressed when we face situations which you can't handle. I sometimes spend time thinking on how to solve it and miss out on the daily blessings that I already have.
Today when I glance through the net, I stumble upon the news of quake survivor ordeal that recently crippled Japan. A teenager rescued from the rubble of Japan's monster earthquake in a rare feat of survival has recounted spending nine days trapped inside the wreckage unable to alert rescuers outside. Jin Abe and his 80-year-old grandmother Sumi Abe were in the kitchen on the top floor of a two-storey wooden house when the 9.0-magnitude tremor struck on March 11, unleashing a massive tsunami that flattened entire cities. The building collapsed with both inside but the 16-year-old was able to reach blankets, food and drink, helping them survive for more than a week, huddled together to keep warm. The tale of endurance offered a glimmer of hope which showed they never gave up their hope that God will save them. It’s a miracle that stunned me that they survived in really difficult conditions for such a long time. But the learning lesson here is, never give up hope in whatever situation we encounter instead we should be strong to face it.
The key issue here is not only about the willpower to endure the difficult times but also on the untainted character in the midst of crisis. Couple of months ago, I remember I came across a post in The Star newspaper about how the Japanese remain discipline despite being a victim of the devastating disaster. The behaviour of the Japanese in the face of disaster, grief, adversity and suffering should be respected. It is so humbling to witness the disciplined manner that these people carry themselves, queuing patiently for aid and helping each other at the relief centers. Why am I citing this example now after many months, you might wonder? This is simply because, when I compare the selfish mindset I encounter here daily at public transportation hubs, banks and other public facilities, I seriously consider we, Malaysians should learn the obedience from them. It is so beautiful and perfect. There was no hysterical hurry and shoving around. The mindsets of ‘survival of the fittest’ never transpire at that critical moment, not at all. It was astounding to see them lining up at the relief centers and giving aid to other victims with so much of calmness without hullabaloo is something that all of us should learn from them. I really look up to their polished disposition which I would again and again say “Hats off”. Out from the norm in times of disaster, the rescue teams will usually have a tough time handling the security and control of the crowd during their attempt to distribute equitable food to the survivors. But it didn’t happen this way in Japan to my surprise. I am sure they would be truly impressed by the solidarity and humanity of the Japanese people.
So will we be able to take home the message concealed through the spirit shown by the Japanese in times of calamities? Can we be more compliant on road? Do you think we were not taught to be self-discipline from a tender age? What went wrong with our renowned affirmative qualities that were spoken about highly long time back? Something must have gone wrong somewhere. It’s time for us to ponder about it and make a difference to our living.
No wonder the Japanese had risen from the ashes of World War II to emerge as the richest country in Asia and among the most advanced in the world. I do hope that we Malaysians can learn from the shining example of the Japanese victims of the earthquake. They have shown us how much they treasure resilience and strength of character.

JULY HIT THE ROAD WITH A LOVELY WEDDING VIBE!

Let’s talk about wedding. My friend’s wedding, of course!

I thought Saturday night’s wedding celebration of a dear friend of mine was pretty close to perfect. And the way that the bride and groom smile at each other when walk down the aisle, simply symbolizes their blissful journey into next phase of their life. Marriage is certainly the most beautiful phase of our life. Beyond doubt, it’s the most ecstatic moment to share their joy of celebration with a toast of blessings. As for me and other friends, we were there to celebrate them and take this memorable opportunity to reminisce our days together back then in varsity days…Bundles of memories we had in that phase of our life and it just knocks the reality into our little heads that ‘we ARE getting OLDER’!!! Time flies actually when you’re happy and in the midst of enjoying singlehood.

Since the start of year 2011, this wedding will mark the 4th event I am rejoicing. It seems to me 2011 has an amazing line up of weddings among my acquaintances! Each time I am attending a wedding function, someone might come up to me and quizzes “When’s yours then?” It’s pretty stale question for young girls and trust me, it’s quite annoying too. Someday all of us will be down that road to embrace marriage once we are prepared for the wedding oath. After all, marriage is a journey of life time, which a couple must walk together to make the journey more lively and interesting.

This wedding of my pretty friend was held in Proton City Complex, Tanjung Malim, a suburb about 70km north of KL. I would aver Tanjong Malim as a rather sleepy town. I would only recall this town as a stop-over rest area during long haul travels between Ipoh and Kuala Lumpur for tea-break usually. This happens occasionally during festive season. I was fond of the town for its historic footprints left from the past. Although unlike KL, lacking in sophisticated development, Tg Malim has its own uniqueness. Just like the poise of the town; it emulates on the personality of Charumathi. We shared the same course back in varsity days. A gentle person whom I have known for more than 7 yrs has been an epitome of affection and compassion till today. Her smile and soft voice will melt even the toughest one. Probably that’s how her hubby got smitten with.Hahaha..Jokes apart but on a serious note, it is certainly beyond doubt. I am still in daze to realise that she is a WIFE now! I am super happy for you charu (aka hamster). May God bless you and Vara with a blissful journey of life.

It has been ages since I met the rest of my friends. A couple of months I believe we were all tied up with work, work and work. And this was the best time for us to come together and keep in touch with each other. Weddings are certainly the most valuable way of having a reunion. Besides the lovely ambiance, good food, music, catching up session but also there’s a time for photo shoot to capture the memories. And what else better can we do besides striking a pose with your best buddies to reminisce our younger days. Life can never be more beautiful like this.

All in all, it was an unforgetable and memorable day for all of us to celebrate the nuptial of Charumathi & Vara.

Looking forward to weekends

Its Thursday today! That is why I am geared up thinking about weekends. And it explains about the title of my blog here. I have finally understood why a lot of people always utter the maxim, “Thank God, it’s Friday” (TGIF) during the end of the week and why a lot of people are looking forward to the weekend. For the past two months, I have been like anxiously waiting for the weekends to rejuvenate myself or restore my sleep deprivation in preparation for coming long weekdays with tones of work awaiting me in line.

For the longest time, I have been having busy weekends too which might sound unusual to some but that is the reality of life. Weekends will see unfinished personal business/activities that were seeking for my attention. That doesn’t mean that I have not really had the time for rest and recreation. It’s as if weekends just passed me by. I have been going up and down with my project planning checklist and pinning down the necessary item. It’s fun though it needs some devotion and effort too. And have been getting ideas, recommendation and suggestions from those who has been there and accomplished their task beautifully. So why can’t I do? *Grinz*




And definitely, I am now of the many who look forward to weekends. I admit, I utter “Yes, It’s Friday already” with a big grin. Although, my weekends are still as busy as ever and sometimes more stressful. But now, there’s a big change to it. (With an exception to last weekend where I decided to hibernate thoroughly).

Bye bye June, Welcome July :)

There is no love lost between the month of June and me. It was a demanding month for me. I’m just glad that June is coming to an end. June was not really an easy-going month since it took a toll on my wellbeing. Nothing bad but I’m just too lethargic. The reasons range from personal to professional. As I am someone who works in the research organization, June, which coincides with the financial yr end, is a very busy and stressful month. Talk about new FY directions, new goals & KPI to be set, brainstorming from our scientific board meeting feedbacks and a whole lot more. It is indeed a grueling month that I do not have time for recreation and would often come home dead tired. My eyes were looking puffy and tired most of the days and I totally forgot about grooming myself which I do quite often on regular basis. I didn’t have time to blog even for couple of months even though I had so many ideas in my head to scribble BUT time just don’t permit me to do so.…just look at my entries for this month! Only 2 (including this one)! And none since April till May!!! Gosh, the lag period make me sound like I had dull life for the past couple of months...Duh! Very unlikely coz there was several fun things and planning was going on a low-key. Hehehe...




Not to mention some personal concerns that I have. June reminds me of the passing of an honored temple priest- known for his great religious responsibilities. June also had the privilege to come out with the holistic plan for my personal ‘happiness project’. This might raise curiosity to many but the execution of this happiness project will solve all the puzzles in near future. So, till then, you guys have to wait for the surprise. Whenever June approaches, I would often have that feeling of nostalgia and melancholia. There is a pervading feeling of being “down and out.” Furthermore, this particular time, I have been thinking a lot about plans and life in general. I guess, I would have to make some major decisions soon.
As June draws to a close, I am filled with hope that July is going to be better and brighter.



So long June, until next year! And I’m looking forward for a great July which I am sure is gonna be much more exciting than before. Welcome July 11!!!

It Looks Like Its Been Awhile....

Bonjour folks!
So, it’s been a while since i wrote a blog, with ‘hot’ topics sometimes mild and sometimes contentious. Haha! Almost certainly, my absence from the blogging platform is due to my ever-demanding work nature. After all, my job is not all about holidaying or taking things easy. It’s more on a serious note and nothing about being laidback. I have been looking for a slip off to jot my ramblings but never had the time. Coz at the end of the day, I find myself too jaded and can’t wait to tuck myself into my welcoming bed (nothing is more soothing than a nice, cosy sleep)..



Work is not the only reason for me to be pushed away from blogging, but something more essential stuffs has been on my cards and requires prioritization. I don't know why and how, BUT, my senses did get kicked with a call to start moving and planning ahead.. After all, it’s a huge task and needs careful coordination to make the best out of it. So here I am, moving back and forth, up and down etc etc with my mega project. **




Regardless of why, IM BACK, I have to make my presence felt. And the calling came to me this morning. Hmmm..well I needed to refocus my goals, and strive for it. So many agendas line up for me for the next couple of months. I am all geared up for the coming agenda. But that doesnt mean I shud compromise on something that I love the most; BLOGGING! I love it and will not discontinue giving piece of my mind to all the avid followers/readers...


WOOOHOOO LETS DO THIS!